...its been a little while now, seems like forever ago, her affects on me are still very real but no one in my life will know, she came into my life but she was never going to stay, girls like her are intoxicating in that special way...
...damn the pain is delicious in a weird kind of sense,
listening to music today my memories of her so very intense,
she got to me, only a very few have ever done that,
most shared their feelings in the past while there I just sat...
...it was bound to happen, you know what you put forth comes back,
always multiplied from the Universe, good or bad, but never in lack,
we create our own reality so I guess I needed her only for a while,
as I reflect on her being with me all I can do is smile...
...life is never really lived until you have lost something you cannot replace,
as we make time everyday for the desires of our hearts we do chase,
we all likely want what we cannot seemingly have and now,
instead of accepting that reality, we ponder and ponder as to how...
...a bath for the soul is when you break down and cry,
something you would never do if you are an alpha male type of guy,
but to cry in private and visualize what if scenarios about her,
is the most delicious of pains, of at least for me there ever were...
...I want her so bad but I know this from within,
we could never ever reconnect as having been lovers we could not just be friends,
when I listen to the music we loved listening to together on our drives,
I hope we share the same memories when we each reflect back on our lives...
...the journey to nowhere is the path most people take,
my journey is however different as my path alone I choose to make,
visions of a future where just a glimpse of her I will see,
a better place for myself, where I am proud to now be...
...can you read between the lines of this poem I selectively share,
or does the words not touch you because you have no reason to care,
if it has not happened to you yet, the same thing may surely visit you,
then we will share a bond like no other, telling stories of what we once knew...
...I would rather have fell hard for someone I had lost,
than to have never had met her as that would have been a greater loss,
I still remember looking at her when she was with me,
knowing she would soon be gone and now to be just a memory!
Her Affect on Me is still so very real!